The work needed to create

22.07.07

Filed Under: work

Today I walked the usual 45 minutes to the subway, took the subway for 15 minutes and then walked another 10 minutes. I come to work and boil some water to make coffe and after four minutes I’m in coffe-heaven!
Enough about all that, well I sit down at my desk and scan over some feeds in order to catch any news (yeah right, as if something new actualy happens). I read on Gamespot that Kojima Productions (the makers of the Metal Gear Solid games) are planning a new game for my belvoed PSP.
They got a link to Hideo Kojima’s blog and I start reading one of his entries. It starts off describing a rainy morning and the hazards involved in walking in an umbrella environment when trying to catch the subway. Then he says something realy interesting.
I don’t want to say that the work is dull. The thing is, I really don’t want to work. I only want to create. I realize now that I am harangued by the work needed to create.

I think that ol’Hideo puts into words the feeling I had last week. I actualy got an entire week off to study for a Java certification. What was so great about that week was that I got up at the usual hour and sent my girlfriend to work. After that I sat down to study. I felt as if I traveled back in time to my time as a student. But the funny thing was that after 5 minutes I started getting restless. Why?
I realized afterwords that what was different was that I didn’t get interrupted. At work I usualy get interrupted by either: a) an email b) a co-worker c) some other fucker in the open environment who has a new ringtone on his cell d) some project manager with a “problem”.
I became restless because I could work without interruptions. It’s just sad how you adopt a horrible way of working because the environment arround you sucks. I realy think that working constantly in open environments makes you adapt unnatural habits and you realy don’t work well.

Anyway, back to Hideo, “the work needed to create”. I certainly feel this way. I sometimes feel like I’m wasting my skills on useless clients who realy don’t give a flying fuck what I do as long as I deliver “something”. I wanna create and be creative, not being constantly held back by too small budgets and horrible project management… fuck it, I hate work.

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